Prayer

I am beginning a study of prayer. I have blogged regarding faith. A blog called 'My Unbelief.' Yet the mechanism of my unbelief is found in my lack of understanding in the mechanism of prayer. I know, as with many Christians I do not pray enough. I am not committed enough to prayer.
Intitially when God first introduced Himself to me, I had my prayers answered no matter how weak or full of doubt. This time of honeymoon with God, as one of His bride is over. God wants my maturity and He wants it in prayer.

11When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me. 1 Corinthians 13:11

I work in full time minsitry on the streets in our community at night, where on lost soul would break your heart. God has put us into relationships with over 200. Do the heart math. Even as I write, our God is listening to me. I long to see more of the lost saved by Him. What must I pray? How must I pray? How long? How often?

My wife suffers from a terrible affliction that can cause her prolonged suffering for periods at a time the rest of her life. My desire is that God would use His power to heal her. To claim:

I cried to the Lord my God for help, and He healed me. Psalm 30:2

I have COPD and Hep C which has been advancing into more serious stages. I am a 43 year old man with 2 year old daughter. My desire is to be healed so that she will continue to have a Papa, and my wife a husband.

My dilemna I know is the same for many Christians, we have lost faith in prayer. I know in my heart it is something I am doing wrong. I am going to study and research this with God to lead me to His truth. I am not settling for what my own flesh or the doubts of others tell me. God's word reveals more truths that I can understand, but I know Jesus can and will teach me if I ask.

I am the Way the Truth and the Life, no one comes to the Father except through me. John 14:6

Jesus commanded me to be at peace as His disciple, yet I am not. My heart is troubled and I am afraid. I am a sinner for I cannot keep this seemingly simple command. Yet I know that God's word and His name will remain sovereign in my life as He teaches me His truth.

I will bow down toward Your Holy Temple and praise Your name for Your love and faithfulness, for You have exalted above all things; Your name and Your word. Psalm 138:2-3

The world has nothing to offer me. My answers will come from the Spirit of truth teaching me what I do not know. I will not seek the world to comfort me either. I bow down to my God, whom I do not fully have faith in, to redeem me from my sin and heal my unbelieving heart.

in Christ...

...a brother